Showing posts with label mental health. Show all posts
Showing posts with label mental health. Show all posts

Ontario Community Resource: 211 Day


As a continued community panel member with 211, I wanted to share some information about the service and how this crucial resource is so important to our communities especially when so many of us are dealing with challenging life circumstances! #211Day #HelpStartsHere

So what is 211?

211 connects people to over 60,000 government and community programs such as:

🧠 Mental health services, 🤝 Community programs, 🏠Housing🥫 Food banks and so much more!

👉211 is a free, confidential service available to all Ontarians. 

👉It is accessible 24/7 in more than 150 languages by phone, text, chat, and web.

If you or someone you know needs help, remember those 3 key numbers 2-1-1.


💜Find the help you need: 211 Website


My Acrylic Art Work

I've been dabbling into acrlyics on canvas and have even sold some pieces! It makes me happy that I can create and contribute to our community. I wanted to share what I've done lately.  *A portion of the proceeds from the sale of each piece will go to a local charity here in Windsor-Essex County or to someone in need.


Collage: 

(top left) Many paths are not linear but we can find our way.

Titled: Connect The Dots 🎨

Dimensions: "8 x 10" (black glittery frame) SOLD


(top right)  Embrace the chaos of sound.

Titled: Feel The Noise 🎨

Dimensions: "9 x 12"  SOLD 


(bottom left) Each moment carries us.

Titled: Impermanence🎨

Dimensions: 11" x 14"

(bottom right) Titled: Remember The Joy 🎨

Dimensions: 8" x 10" (black glittery frame)


Holiday season can often be a mixed bag of emotions for many of us.

Titled: Unwrapped🎨

Dimensions: 11" x 14" 


I think our physical embodiment can get tangled up in ways that feel almost dysphoric.

Titled: Relentless 🎨

Dimensions: 18" x 24"


Titled: Spiraling 🎨

Dimensions: 8" x 10" 


Title: Magic🎨
Dimensions: 11" x 14"



Title: Shine in the Dark🎨
Dimensions: 12"



Titled: Lift Me Up 🎨
Dimensions: 11" x 14"




Titled: Frazzled 🎨
Dimensions: 11" x 14"





Titled: Eruption 🎨
Dimensions: 16" x 20"

First Time Aromatherapy Puzzle!

🧩Aromatherapy 500 Piece Puzzle with Lavender Scented Candle



After helping to declutter and organize a home (one of my favourite things to do!) , this puzzle was given to us.

I thought it would be relaxing to do since it is only 500 pieces. Definitely challenging because the puzzle pieces are so uniquely shaped. It took quite a bit of time to figure out.

The puzzle overall though is good quality, no complaints at all. The lavender scented candle smells nice, I could smell it when we opened up the puzzle box. Thankfully, not headache inducing or too strong. I don't light candles inside the house though, so I'll give the candle to someone who does.

I absolutely love all the beautiful colours and this tranquil scene.


💜Take a look at all the fun puzzles at Puzzles Canada

Challenging New Puzzles

Well I am sharing our finished Ceaco puzzles from this set of 8 and some thoughts on each one!



🧩300 pieces

The rounded puzzle had a learning curve. For some reason just looking at it completed, reminded me of the lyrics from the iconic musical, The Sound of Music.

🎵Follow every rainbow Till you find your dream 🎵




This one was pretty easy to do!



🧩500 pieces

So many itty bitty details on each cupcake! I was struggling on this one especially the purple - my fav colour. Still fun to work on together and turned out great.




Another challenging one especially the blues!


This one took several days to complete.Some of the different patterns and coloured pieces helped to navigate where each balloon would be placed. Definitely another challenging one but turned out lovely.


A stunning pose. So many little details and to figure out the right pieces to match the pattern and colours, especially around the head.




🧩750 pieces

We finished this 750 piece puzzle. It was extremely difficult and to our surprise, these particular pieces were definitely poor quality compared to the other puzzles. Beautiful scene but quite a disappointment. 





🧩1000-pieces!


Sorting puzzle pieces into containers has become really helpful. Although this one had SO many colour combos that I needed to get more. Also, as you can see, it took up our entire dining room table. lol



Finished!


Our first time working on a 1000 piece puzzle. This was unbelievably difficult at times. Hours could go by and there would be rejoice with "I found A piece!" Glasses on, glasses off... trying different ways to see if a piece fit together or not. Then also wondering sometimes, "is there an actual piece missing?" We get into the groove and then boom, a standstill.

This puzzle really taught us such levels of patience, which is always a great virtue to have in life.

Very happy with our accomplishment.

Puzzled: A New Year Ahead

Our 2023 Holiday Tree

Well hello again to all my readers.  It's been a little while since I last sat down to write a blog. 

Bill surprised me with this assortment of Ceaco Puzzles for my birthday, along with other personal gifts.  I really love all the vibrant colours and the 750 piece scenic one is my favourite. It's ignited some joy that I hope will stay around. We've actually donated several of our other puzzles that we did together, which I hope others are enjoying.  

These will take some time to do, so I'm actually excited to put on some coffehouse jazz music, make a nice cup of tea and sit down and work on these puzzles together over the holidays and into 2024.  Below is what the box looks like.

Ceaco Puzzle - 8 in total!

If I'm going to be totally honest, which is pretty much what you can always expect from me, my inspiration and passion about so many things has dwindled. There's been this void of desire along with on-going fogginess that I can't quite explain that more often than not on most days makes me feel really blah. Not blah blah blah (if you are a fan of Hotel Transylvania, you'll get the reference).  

I know what anxiety feels like and good ol' depression is no stranger either.  However, the feeling is different.  I'm a paradox of thought as it seems as though I am intune with my body, yet I also sense this strong feeling of being disconnected from it. 

I'm now 43, so maybe I'm going through some spiritual shedding.  I don't even know what that means exactly, but the phrase resonates. I also read recently a beautiful quote from writer, Dani Shapiro:"You can start your day over anytime." and that has really stuck in a  positive way. 

A daily reminder to myself and anyone else that might be going through challenges: Eat (balanced/mindfully - treat yourself too) Move (gently) and Rest (recharge). 

As I reflect, 2023 was filled with plenty of lessons as well as blessings.  It was also a pivotal time of honing in on emotional sobriety - my foundation for a happy and healthy existence. 

Living in more calm than entering into unnecessary chaos is a good place to be and what I continue to strive towards each and every day.

A special thank you to those who continue to have their arms open for me, their ears when I need to talk and of course, their hearts. 

~Until next time...


May Movie Reviews



Hello my dear viewers, I hope you've been having a good start to May!  

Before I get into the movie reviews, I wanted to highlight a fun new activity that I've done recently and didn't have the chance to post about.



💕💃🕺Bill and I took a dance class together at the Windsor Dance eXperience from Tiffany Chan. The choreography we learned was to the song from Hairspray called "You Can't Stop The Beat".  Bill rocked it, he's quite a natural. I have to applaud anyone who is able to follow any kind of dance routines because I never knew how uncoordinated I was until seeing myself in a mirror. lol It was fast-paced so after a few times, I did get parts of the routine though. 

It was a judgement-free zone and all abilities were welcomed - my kind of vibe. The new space is coming together nicely and I am excited about taking other dance classes together, maybe just a bit slower paced. Tiffany was wonderful as our teacher though, and the room was filled with great energy. We were all there to have fun.  By the end, I felt a smidge more confident but I'm not ready for Broadway anytime soon. ;)  

Now onto the films!





Renfield is a modern monstrous tale that is directed by Chris McKay.

This movie was incredibly entertaining as who doesn’t want to see Nicolas Cage portray the Prince of Darkness, Dracula?  At one point, a homage to Bela Lugosi is given, in a ghoulish yet very “Cage-like” performance, and it works. In other scenes, he is just a blood-thirsty and tyrannical vamp, out for... well, blood.  Also power, world domination, you know the usual. 

Renfield, his devoted servant, played by Nicholas Hoult is awesome and fits his role well.  Now as brutally violent as this film is with some graphic fighting scenes, it can be triggering for many because of the obvious themes that go outside the supernatural realm.

Renfield is a self-loathing character and really a shell of himself, acknowledging his co-dependency to Dracula. Stumbling into a support group for domestic abuse, Renfield’s recollection of how it all started for him feels more exaggerated since he possesses supernatural powers, but still mirrors those in the human world, who live to tell their painful stories.  We’re rooting for Renfield though to find that courage to leave and get out of Dracula’s grasp forever. 

While the movie still has some laughs for its absurdity, you might get an eyeful from all the blood splatters. Some of the scenes are totally outrageous and gore-filled, and parts of the story seem to zig zag all over the place at high speed.

Overall, definitely one to check out, but if you have experienced abuse on any level, past or even present, please make sure to check in with your emotions after the credits roll. 

💜Renfield Trailer




Dear Evan Hansen directed by Stephen Chbosky is a musical/film adaptation of the Tony and Grammy Award-winning stage play.                                                           

When Evan (played by Ben Platt) is prompted by his therapist to write letters to himself, in order to help him cope with his crippling anxiety, a note gets into the wrong hands of a misfit student, Connor Murphy (Colton Ryan), who takes it.  There is a sudden shock of Connor’s suicide shortly after and that’s where the story gets complicated. The Murphy’s are convinced that him and Evan were great friends, as the single note was found in Connor’s pocket.   Knowing that Connor had even one friend is comforting to them and something his mom desperately is holding onto, now inviting Evan into their family, which feels like the replacement son.  Evan is then caught up in a fantasy that they were friends and shares all sorts of adventures that they went on to make the family, in particular their daughter,  Zoe, (Kaitlyn Dever), who Evan secretly pines for,  believe that this was the truth. Evan starts to write other letters to keep up the charade until it all comes crashing down.

This is a very heavy movie. It highlights the silent struggles of mental health, and the cascading toll it takes on everyone, just from different perspectives.  Evan can be seen as a victim or a villain, sometimes both maybe, depending on how you perceive things. 

Many of the songs are imperfectly sung in a heart-wretching way from Words Fail and For Forever to  Requiem. The lyrics are poignant and we feel the deepest aches through so many of the scenes.

While the stage musical got rave reviews (I never had a chance to see this one) it seems like the polar opposite holds true for what the film tried to portray through its chosen characters, surrounding mental health as well as neurodiversity. While I understand some of the criticism, regardless of your position, I think one thing is pretty evident, “The parts we can't tell, we carry them well, but that doesn't mean they're not heavy."

💜Trailer 




Guess who’s back, back again? Ghostface’s back, tell a friend.  We’re onto #6 of the Scream franchise now, directed by Matt Bettinelli-Olpin and Tyler Gillett.                              

Although I wasn’t sure that this would be any different than the other Scream films, this slasher and whodunnit mystery took me by surprise, simply with the opening scene setting the stage for what would proceed to be a very violent viewing.                                  

Since the intensity of the movie itself never dulled with Ghostface this time just being so relentless with every stab, I think they did a good job keeping that excitement because there were so many moments where I kept second guessing myself.   I did like the dynamic sisterly bond between Tara and Sam (Jenna Ortega and Melissa Barrera) but found the other characters were more on the forgettable side.                                                                                                    

I was also momentarily happy to see Gale Weathers (Courtney Cox) make a brief return, but she was disappointing too, and didn’t really hold much of a purpose, except a sense of nostalgia maybe. Her fight with Ghostface was mediocre, definitely not the intensity that you’d find in for example, Jamie Lee Curtis who took on Michael Myers, in the most recent Halloween. 

While I don’t think this was the best Scream, I did enjoy it. A little brutal for some who are squeamish, but definitely a heart-pumping ride till the masks come off. 

If you see a ghost, you call ghostbusters. If you hold a grudge, be sure to call Ghostface and he’ll come a runnin’.

💜Scream Trailer


One Step At A Time: March Movie Reviews



Hi everyone! I'm back with some more movie reviews for you to enjoy. 


A Man Called Otto directed by Marc Forster is an uplifting story of hope and renewal of life.  Tom Hanks plays Otto, a rather grouchy man, who is ready to leave everything behind after losing his wife.  With many failed attempts at taking his own life, there feels like a reason he is still here.  

The movie is touching and we see over the course of the movie how his connection with other neighbours change his life as well as theirs in subtle yet profound ways. Otto is not a man to sugar coat anything,  he’ll tell you straight up like it is, whether you want to listen to his ramblings or not. His blunt honesty is not always welcome, but in every situation, when Otto is confronted with doing the right thing, he does.  

Another highlight is the blooming friendship with new neighbour, Marisol, played by Mariana Treviño, who sees the genuine heart underneath all the grumpiness. She’s a wonderful character in the movie and brings out all the joy that Otto has buried down deep inside and shows him there is still so much beauty in life that his wife would not want him to miss out on. 

💜A Man Called Otto Trailer

I am hoping to see the Swedish film release, A Man Called Ove.

                                            

The Whale directed by Darren Aronofsky is a heartbreaking story to watch because we have all known someone in our lives that no matter what we do, we cannot reach them. Maybe they are struggling with addiction, mental health, or something that they still cannot even come to terms with.  Feeling an obligation to help the broken, can also sometimes break us.  It’s hard to tread these waters and stay afloat.

As the saying goes, don’t judge a book by its cover, however, we mostly do, especially in extreme circumstances. Visually, we see Charlie (played by Brendan Fraser), a 600 lbs+ man, stuffing his face with fried chicken and we immediately think, hell, why can’t he just stop eating? He’s disgusting and made a choice, why have an ounce sympathy for him? Before critical judgement, let's pause. Touching on themes of grief, severe depression, hidden identity, isolation, estranged family, a broken healthcare system, and other crucial pieces of Charlie’s crumbling life, we can see that it’s far more than just about putting down the greasy drumsticks.  

His best friend, Liz, played by Hong Chau, gives an incredible performance as well. We get to see the heartache she is battling from her own losses and her fierce loyalty to try and keep others from messing with Charlie’s psyche, specifically a missionary who wants to “save him.” Taking on the caregiver role of keeping Charlie alive (she is a nurse) despite his clear wishes of not getting any outside medical help, as all the money he has needs to be given to his daughter, sadly enables his behaviours.  She is such a strong character though and it is true that in order to build resiliency, it comes with a lot of breakdowns.  

As we watch Charlie further deteriorate, his desperation to reconnect with his daughter shows his vulnerability and in some ways selflessness of giving up everything to make sure she is happy in life. There are a lot of complex emotions to deal with. The final scene has a poetic closure and offers symbolic interpretations.

It’s never too late to say you’re sorry.

💜While receiving standing ovations at the premiere of The Whale, this movie has had its share of backlash too, which you may agree or disagree with.  However, in my opinion, after being out of the spotlight for so long, Brendan Fraser's performance here still definitely deserved to be taking home Best Actor at the 2023 Oscars.

💜The Whale Trailer


Missing is written and directed by Nicholas D. Johnson and Will Merrick.

The motherly frustrations of dealing with teenage woes is not uncommon. Unanswered phone calls and text messages coupled with rebellious shenanigans with friends are par for the course, but to certain degrees. 

So what happens when it is the parental figure who doesn’t answer their phone, and just disappears? We are taken on a wild technological ride when daughter, June (Storm Reid) takes it upon herself to go into virtual sleuth mode to find  her mom Grace Allen, (Nia Long) who vanishes during a vacation in Colombia with her boyfriend, Kevin (Ken Leung).                              

The movie is full of excitement and offers a lot of thrilling moments, similar to the movie that I reviewed; Searching.  However, what is termed as a "spiritual sequel", there is more complexity to the parental/teenage relationship, and the intensity really grows with more plot twists that shifts audience sympathies back and forth like a pendulum.

An interesting part of the movie is June hiring a local Columbian, Javi, played by Joaquim de Almeida to help her find evidence and locate her mom. His technology skills are not quite on par with June’s, . However, after getting the run-around from authorities, June is running out of options and as much as she strives to be independent, she needs a shoulder to lean on. In this case, it’s a virtual one that the director is able to translate into a lot of warmth on screen.  We love Javi for being the ideal father-like figure that June wishes she still had in her life and the fact that Javi might not be disappearing from June’s life any time soon. 

While technology has a way of sometimes pulling us apart, it is also a way to bring us back together. It brings me back to the days of Mr. Rogers when he said “always look for the helpers.”

💜Missing Trailer


We Have A Ghost, directed by Christopher Landon is a film that really was surprising to watch as there were so many things wrong with the movie, yet somehow it ended up being a favourite here to write about.

During the first half, we're seeing the Presley family move into a creepy, dilapidated home that probably no one would really realistically buy. Alas, they purchase the home, hoping to have a new start. 

Jahi Di'Allo Winston as Kevin, plays the detached misunderstood teenager who we immediately expect will befriend the ghost - Ernest (played by David Harbour) found living up in the attic.  Soon Ernest is captured on video, uploaded to Youtube by Kevin's father, and of course, it goes viral. The film spirals a bit out of control here adding in a wacky Jennifer Coolidge who plays a psychic, known as The West Bay Medium. 

After a lot of comedic moments that honestly felt awkward and misplaced with another attempt of be relevant of current trends (cue needless Kardashian references) the story takes a very unexpected turn where we become so involved in Kevin and Ernest's friendship.  

David is at his absolute best, giving us such an endearing physical performance without speaking throughout the film, (technically, he did in fact speak 1 word, but I will not spoil that). I became quite invested in the mystery as to why Ernest was stuck in the attic, as did my husband. I loved the interaction between Kevin and Ernest almost immediately. There ends up being so many deeper layers to the story, which I wish the tone of the movie went into sooner, instead of the comedic flops of chaos trailing on for so long.  

I never thought that I'd shed tears for a ghost, but if there is any reason to give this movie a chance, it's for David Harbour's performance.

💜We Have A Ghost Trailer

Finding Who You Are: Film Inspirations



Welcome to another blog! I really wanted to share with my viewers my thoughts on some wonderful documentaries that we've watched over the last while. 




Wildcat is an incredibly moving documentary by Melissa Lesh and Trevor Beck Frost that brings us on  an exploration into the harsh Peruvian jungle, where coined as “lost souls” can find salvation and connections can be made in the most unexpected ways.

Raising orphaned ocelots is a big feat and for Harry Turner, it’s nature’s prescription to help him cope as he returns home from Afghanistan with the shadows of severe depression and PTSD following him.  Meeting ecologist and PhD student, Samantha Zwicker, who is the co-director of Hoja Nueva, an NGO in the Peruvian Amazon. she is drawn to helping the broken, clearly not without its consequences. Both their passion to raise orphaned wildlife gives them purpose, and for Harry, a reason to live. 

The sacrifices and solitude that comes with choosing to live in the Amazon though is very intense and we get to experience Harry and Samantha’s vulnerabilities and strengths, as a couple and as individuals.   

This film is very character-driven, which packs quite a punch, without losing focus on many important messages throughout, including mental health. We get to witness all the emotional highs and lows  which explain a lot about why Harry and Samantha felt drawn to dedicate so much of their lives to rehabilitating wild animals,  as well as working through their inner demons towards a path of healing.

The documentary is depicted in a very intimate way that also explores interspecies bonds in profound ways, the impacts of deforestation and the complex pet trade that can dramatically change the course of our lives.  

Wildcat shows us the fragility of life. The ability to overcome struggles that may seem insurmountable at times, only proves that we are always stronger than we think.  

💜Learn more about the Hoja Nueva's rewilding center & Emerald Arch


When I heard about the movie, Running with Speed, the little girl inside me wanted to know more about this secret (well not so secret anymore) society of gamers that defy the limits of what can be accomplished in a virtual world.

Narrated by the internet legend and video game historian Summoning Salt, this documentary directed by Patrick Lope and Nicholas Mross follows a niche community of gamers from all walks of life called Speed Runners.  They are dedicated to breaking the fastest records in video game play and determined to find the most intricate glitches in video games that most of us would probably never accomplish in our lifetime. Clearly a lot of energy drinks are consumed.

I wouldn’t consider myself a gamer, although many years ago, I did find joy investing time in the Mortal Kombat after long shifts at work and Sonic the Hedgehog games. My brother was ridiculously talented at video gaming and could solve levels like a pro. I also dabbled in Mario Bros, although I wasn’t quite skilled enough to ever save the lovely Princess Peach, but I did come close.

Now for nostalgia. Playing Bubble Bobble and Impossible Mission on the Comm64 was bliss, as well as Choplifter. Let's not forget Zork for a little role-playing action either.

Like anything, there is a dark side to gaming, in particular when one gets into speedrunning that can become an unhealthy addiction and obsession that is explored briefly from the perspectives of some of the top gamers that were part of the documentary. There are struggles of where to draw the line at a career vs a hobby. Sometimes those lines are blurred and real vs user generated identities get so enmeshed that it causes confusion and serious consequences. 

However, this doc really highlights a lot of the positive aspects of gaming culture, which include a community of passionate gamers who to this day, still cheer each other on during the most fierce competitions.  There are also some incredible ways that gaming marathons exploded into a life-giving movement to raise money and support charitable organizations. 

While I may never actually create an account over on Twitch, which is a live-streaming gamers haven, I do have a new-found appreciation and high level of respect for the art of gaming.  Game on!

💜Check out Games Done Quick which has raised over 43 million dollars for charity. It is currently the largest individual fundraising event globally for both Prevent Cancer Foundation and Doctors Without Borders USA.


Gear up to get those wind in your sails, as True Spirit is an Australian gem that you shouldn’t pass by. Directed by Sarah Spillane, this film is based on the real-life story of teenager Jessica Watson (played by Teagan Croft), who at 16 became the youngest person ever to sail around the world alone. 

The movie is gripping and if miracles do actually exist, Jessica is living proof of surviving some of the roughest waters and storms that mother nature had in mind for her during her 210 day journey. 

Jessica’s bravery and stamina allows for us to really see her maturity even at such a young age, as well as the wonderful unwavering support of her family.  Also what is so special about the film is Jessica’s connection with her sailing coach, Ben.  It turns out that Ben actually represented a team of people in real life, but the depiction is really heart-warming in the film. 

Along with the emotional depth of the film, the accompanying soundtrack is pretty awesome too, especially with “I Made It” performed by the Australian singer, Tones And I.

💜Check out Jessica's website here to read more about her adventures



The Lost King, directed by Stephen Frears is a story that needs to be heard and who better to star in this than one of my favourite actresses, Sally Hawkins.  She plays the role of Philippa Langley (known for her real life discovery and exhumation of Richard III), a woman who deals with an invisible illness (ME/CFS) that makes her feel just that, invisible. In work, she is overlooked and often ridiculed, and home life is chaotic, trying to juggle life’s expectations. 

After seeing a live production of Shakespeare's Richard III, Philippa finds herself quite defensive of what many believe to be a historical villain (or was he also an unsung hero?). As an amateur historian, she heads down an uncertain path to find Richard III’s remains, where she believes he is located under a car park in Leicester.   

The film is really thought-provoking on its own, having a sleuth-like British feel, and the rooting for the underdog scenario. Another great role is Steve Coogan, who plays the ex-husband who is more on the skeptic yet supportive side. Although divorced, we still see the love that can remain between two people.  The pace of the movie is a bit rocky at times, but it's not boring in the least. Despite controversy over many inaccuracies and a potential lawsuit brewing from many in academia over the film, the heartfelt message of one woman’s quest to succeed on her own terms is evident. 

Now, despite knowing very little on the subject of Richard III, it was quite a surprise, but a pleasant one, that a very complex yet misunderstood condition called ME/CFS (a condition that is quite varied from person-to-person, and I have silently dealt with for many years) was mentioned in this film. It deserves more attention so funding and research can be spent to help patients lead higher quality lives and maybe even someday find a cure. It made me feel inspired to continue my pursuit to live a fulfilling life despite my limitations and ill-informed assumptions that others believe about me.

💜Support ME/CFS Research

Voices Carry: She Said Movie Review

 



She Said, directed by Maria Schrader takes investigative journalism to another level, as New York Times journalists Megan Twohey (played by Carey Mulligan) and Jodi Kantor (played by Zoe Kazan) spearhead a story that would finally give women a voice to speak out about their experiences against one of most affluent Hollywood producers, Harvey Weinstein.

It is no surprise that powerful men often feel that they are in a position to have the upper hand and can use many forms of coercive control to get what they want.  The word “narcissist” is a word that is well-known in our vocabulary, but until we witness this behaviour, it only scratches the surface of what a person with this type of personality disorder can be capable of.  

The portrayal of Harvey in this film is chilling. It is a mirrored reflection of many men (in this particular case, but can be applied to any gender, of course) who believe they will never be caught because they are under a delusion that they are untouchable. We are reminded that as this case unfolds, the illusion of this idea is deeply flawed.  

The mix of emotions here is strong, as recollections of events are told and of course all the loop holes that impede justice. There is no linear path sometimes for conviction, which is frustrating and we can see the pursuit for the truth is painstakingly hard. We hold an uneasy feeling of wondering if justice will ever prevail. 

I thought this film was executed very well and Mulligan and Kazan’s performances exposed their character’s emotions in a raw way that didn’t take away from the story itself, but actually made it stronger. There is always risk to revealing dark secrets when evidence is not clear cut, but the phrase often used of “he said, she said” doesn’t apply here as all the pieces come together and we get to see more people come out of the shadows and one of the most prolific New York Time stories published that can never be unseen.

Some may feel that Weinstein was just another victim of his earlier life circumstances, plagued by mental illness and the incredible pressures of the Hollywood lifestyle. These and many other factors allowed for his behaviours to be overlooked and unnoticed. 

She Said is a liberating film to watch and as I reflected, I thought of a song that I loved to karaoke. It is called Voices Carry – by 'Til Tuesday with an empowering chorus “hush, hush, keep it down now, voices carry” which can be an anthem sung loudly for women (or any person for that matter) who has experienced the devastating and often long-standing wounds of abuse.  



💜Resources to reach out to:

Support links- Ontario

Canadian Mental Health

National organizations




One Piece At A Time: Puzzles


 

The first jigsaw puzzle was created by a British map engraver named John Spilsbury, all the way in 1760's. He created them for educational purposes and called them "Dissected Maps."

By 1909, dissected maps became more widely known as a jigsaw puzzle.  When the Great Depression hit America in 1929, puzzles exploded in popularity. 

Now here we are in 2022, with such technological advances where you can utilize your computer, phone, or even virtual reality to solve puzzles or go old-school and sit down with one for hours of enjoyment.  Honestly, the latter is more my cup of tea to spend quality time with my hubby and get away from screens or to work on bits solo at our leisure.

With the vast amount of puzzles available, you can find wildlife and scenery to abstract art, nostalgic landmarks, and the list goes on. You can even create personalized puzzles using your own photos. 

They can be easily found in local stores and thrift shops, higher-end boutiques and of course, online. Depending on your preference size and image of choice, you can begin with 250 pieces or if you feel you have the patience, 1000 pieces or more. 

My puzzle journey began with Bill bringing home the sloth puzzle (shown above) for me. He thought it would be a fun activity for us to do together while working on my health challenges.  I'm not a very coordinated person, so it took a lot of effort and patience. The movement of my fingers picking up a puzzle piece and being able to focus felt soothing. I did feel a lot of anxiety at first, but slowly that washed away the more I kept at it. There was so much detail in the fur, so although only 250 puzzle pieces, it took many days to piece together, but it was a great accomplishment and raised my spirits. 

There are so many benefits of puzzles. It can improve cognition and visual-spatial reasoning, aids in memory, builds connection (especially if you are doing it with others), helps with problem-solving, and a big one, it can help to reduce stress hormones and increase mood (thanks dopamine!).

There's no time limit or pressure, it's just fun.  When it becomes stressful, then it's time to take a break and return a few hours later, or even give a day or two of rest. 

After we finished this puzzle together, I loved it so much that I wanted to showcase it. We thought it would make a lovely art piece when you walk into our kitchen. 





While it's been a rather puzzling year (sorry, yes a deliberate pun here) especially after being hit hard by covid and dealing with my own physical and mental recovery, there is a real joy to sit down at the kitchen or dining room table, throw on some instrumental music like jazz or classical, and build piece by piece whatever beautiful creation is chosen.

I'm always looking to add to our collection, so let me know any of your favourites by sending me an email or leaving a comment below. 

These puzzles were purchased from:





👉Fun fact: You can purchase Dowdle's, What A Wonderful World - the world's largest puzzle (as of 2022) - It has a whopping 60,000 pieces and is 8 feet tall and 29 feet long.  

As a novice puzzler, I don't anticipate this purchase any time soon! 


More Than 9 Lives: A Street Cat Named Bob Movie Review



Addiction doesn’t just come in the form of drugs and alcohol, it is prominent in food, gambling,  social media, religion, etc... We can be addicted to just about anything. How far that goes depends on many factors that each of us are ultimately held responsible for. 

A single thought can be harmless. However, it often begins this way. You may have a genetic predisposition or you may not, but when a triggering event, or multiple ones happen over time, a pseudo-harmless thought can spiral into chaos. Nothing begins to matter anymore. It's just you and the addiction. 

The intense craving and the inability to think about anything else but feeding our addiction takes over our already fragile mind. We give into the euphoria, even if it’s for a split second to feel the illusion of happiness, and then we are warped back into reality, stricken with grief, depression, shame, and all the other unpleasant feelings that lead us desperately again into our next high. The cycle continues until we can let go or we sadly die trying. In our minds, we feel that if we are not actively pursuing our addiction, we are forever lost.

I was inspired to write about our viewing of A Street Cat Named Bob, a best-selling international book made into film. It is based on the true story of James Bowen, a heroin addict who fatefully meets a four-legged ginger cat, who affectionately  becomes known as his life-saving furry pal, Bob.   Bring on the tissues!

Luke Treadaway plays the role of James, a heroin addict who is facing the same fate as his friend Baz, who has overdosed for the last time. Trying to withstand the pressures of getting one more hit in, repairing his relationship with his father and somehow rebuilding his life, one night, James finds a four-legged cat rustling around in the hallway and that’s really where the story begins to take shape. 

There is such a beautiful bond that forms and although not everyone’s journey is like James, it gives a sense of hope. Another heartfelt part of the movie is James’ unlikely human friendship and brief love interest with Betty (played by Ruta Gedmintas), James’s quirky and lovable neighbour. She is not all rainbows and sunshine though. Underneath, she is still holding onto grief from her brother’s death, and so that adds a heightened element to the story on what level of support we can honestly take on, even when witnessing such suffering. 

Healing can begin once we face our deepest wounds, but it’s a long and messy road to even feeling half alive again. For some, it takes hitting rock bottom, and for others, it can be a life of balancing the good days and any relapses that happen. We are rooting for James all the way through this film, to at least be given the chance to live out loud with confidence again, as he is working so damn hard through every obstacle tossed his way - totally relatable on some level? Heck ya.

The movie shows many barriers that addicts will continue to face, as well as the toxic “not in my backyard” phenomena that exists especially with recovery involving methadone hubs and harm reduction clinics in residential areas. There are plenty of moments as well where the human condition is explored through the loving relationship that James has with Bob, his ginger cat that won’t leave his side and makes him feel seen, where alone busking on the streets of London, others would make James feel invisible.

Our connections with humans can be limited but there is something extra special about the love shared that is also evidence-based between humans and animals.

The music is also a high point in the movie, as we see this guitar strumming bloke, riding his bike with a cat on his shoulder bringing smiles and hope to all that pass by. Satellite Moments is truly special, along with Second Time Around and Don't Give Up. 

If you can take anything from this film, it is the fact that sometimes helping to save someone else’s life, ends up saving ours too.  




*Sadly, Bob passed away in 2020 but will never be forgotten




COVID Long Hauler: Are we out of the woods?


Are we out of the woods yet? Are we out of the woods yet?

Are we out of the woods yet? Are we out of the woods?

Are we in the clear yet? Are we in the clear yet?

Are we in the clear yet?

“Out of the Woods” by Taylor Swift  resonates so much with me, mainly the chorus, especially right now.

I remember my first symptom: tingling thighs. Then came the onset of a burning, searing feeling every time I touched my skin. I knew that despite being vaccinated and boosted, plus wearing a mask everywhere, following all the other protocols, covid decided it was my time.  

After a considerate amount of time in bed and isolation, my symptoms improved to some degree, but I have never felt the same since. It’s incredibly difficult to explain all the waxing and waning symptoms that I have come to realize now are part of the “long-hauler” crew. 

My life has been re-visiting the medical circuit from panels of blood tests to EKG’s to make sure my little ticker is working the way it should.  

I’m exhausted. 

I know I am not alone, but I feel it often. The onset of depression hasn’t faded. Some days it gets pretty bad and I ask myself, what did I do wrong in this life to have this happen to me? My eyes fill with tears and I start to sob uncontrollably. I am told the answer though, I just have to get out of my emotional pain and accept the reality; It’s how life unfolds, no one is punishing me, I just exist.  The biopsychosocial model also has a lot of insight too.

I’ve been pretty quiet over on social media. I scroll through my feed maybe once a day, but I can’t really muster the desire to be more interactive.  Did anyone really want to read my social media posts about how I crave the day where I can maybe walk more than 5 minutes without my heart beating out of my chest or not having to sit in silence because certain sounds feel like it is penetrating through my skull? Doubtful.

After doing a lot of research, the link between Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and Covid Long Haulers seems to have a connection. I was diagnosed many years ago with CFS, but it feels like it is just an umbrella term for many other overlapping conditions that leave many patients like me, without clear answers. Where can I get help?

It’s pretty scary at times with all the different symptoms, sometimes happening for days, other times, just a few hours. There is no consistency which is the hardest and most frustrating part of it all.

While I’m out here baring my soul, I also have PTSD.  As much happiness as I have had, I’ve also had considerable bouts of traumatic events that led to my diagnosis.  Another debilitating illness that waxes and wanes, but up until now, I was managing relatively well. I'm struggling now with it.

I’ve also refrained from saying much about what I’ve been going through, as I know a lot of stigma comes out from being “unwell”, but keeping it all in is truly hurting more than helping.  

I am very thankful to have people in my life who may not exactly understand what I'm going through, but support me in whatever ways they can. 

We all have our stories, I felt it was time to share another chapter of mine, and if you read up to this point, thank you.

January Popcorn Flicks To Enjoy!






Here we are again, it’s a new year – 2022, so did you make any New Years Resolutions or are you more just aiming to go with the flow?  Personally, I prefer to take off that extra layer of guilt and pressure and just BE.  

We lost plenty more amazing people in the entertainment industry as the ball dropped to welcome 2022. Comedian, Bob Saget, actress and human/fur-itarian Betty White, iconic Sidney Poitier, and a deep sigh, operatic legend, Marvin (also Michael) Lee Aday, aka Meat Loaf.   However, it’s inevitable. Life does not go on forever, but they will surely remain in our hearts.  I’ll be playing the Bat Outta Hell albums, a hell of a lot today. 


Here are a few movies you may want to check out, as we head into some chilly wintery temperatures! 


West Side Story  I absolutely love musicals and so I was quite interested in seeing the Spielberg version of West Side Story that just came out recently.  It didn’t disappoint at all. 

The cinematography by Janusz Kamiński was stunning. The look of the film was beautiful, utilizing different light and shadow techniques. It brought a really ominous feel to the fighting scenes. The choreography was perfect and I loved how they did the song “America” and "Gee, Officer Krupke"  Also the vocal performances were beautifully sung.

“Cool” which is just naturally a really umm...cool song to begin with was envisioned in a completely new, taking place before the rumble, which was an unexpected surprise, but worked well. 

Maria, played by American/Columbian actress, Rachel Zegler and Tony, played by Ansel Elgort (who I may add was phenomenal in Baby Driver) was an interesting pairing. I didn’t feel the love connection right away, but as the movie went on, I could sense a bit more of the romance blooming.  Still...I hate to bring up the original again, BUT the casting of Tony, played by Richard Beymer and Maria, played by actress, Natalie Wood, personally did it for me. Their chemistry exploded on screen. It felt so natural. I believed they were madly in love. 

The only other issues I really had were the placement of “I Feel Pretty” as I didn’t like where it was used in the film. It felt odd.  

Also, the assault scene with Anita was much weaker than expected. I had braced myself for more of a punch (metaphorically speaking) with emotional intensity. I felt like something was being held back throughout the entire scene.



Oh Crappy Day  Written by Jon Lance Bacon and produced by Steven P. Neilson, this is one independent film that I absolutely loved watching.  It hit home on so many levels.

There are many ways that mental health disorders are portrayed in movies and so a fair warning that if you do deal with OCD – Obsessive Compulsive Disorder or anything else that is mentioned in the film (I don’t want to really give all that away), this may not be how you are, or it might resonate with you deeply.  

Dating is difficult enough and so searching for love when you are dealing with OCD is even more of a challenge.   We meet Jared, played by Jordan Estes, who is an aspiring film maker. We watch his struggles, his small feats and all the awkward interactions along the way, as there are many!

So things begin to change when he is encouraged to meet a very spirited woman; Katie, played by Jess Barbour, who is looking to meet someone and once disclosed of his rather extreme condition, she’s rather accepting, yet has some secrets to share, but with great hesitancy. This is when the movie just takes off and our hearts are just rooting for them both the whole way, even if they don’t end up together.

I felt so connected to Jared and Katie, both in their dating explorations together, and apart as separate characters. I love the nuanced moments mixed with humour. The acting had a sincerity to it and I just loved the entire film from start to finish.  



The Woman In Red This one was absolutely ridiculous, yet who doesn't love watching Gene Wilder? Sworn that he would never have an affair, Teddy (played by Gene Wilder) becomes absolutely bewitched by a beautiful model (played by Kelly Labrock) that he sees and starts to fantasize about.   This obsession leads to all sorts of schemes that go terribly yet hilariously wrong. Gilda Radner is in this one too, and although her role is small, she gives a great comedic performance.



Bull Durham Definitely a home-run! I haven't seen this in ages. Although the subject is baseball, still well-known today as America’s Pastime, it is far more than that. It’s about everything that goes on off the field, which is the most captivating part when you get such a great cast together. There’s plenty of romance, humour and spirit.  Kevin Costner and Susan Sarandon are sizzling together on-screen.  There is also such a genuine friendship between Nuke, played by Tim Robbins and Crash (Costner). Definitely check out the fantastic soundtrack too.  



💜Drop me a note in the comments, or send me an email using my webform on the side and let me know what you've been watching!